Canary in a Coalmine

"It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop"

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Good morning! I’m going back to work after the Easter break. And I’m an year older…but it’s sunny ;)
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Good morning! I’m going back to work after the Easter break. And I’m an year older…but it’s sunny ;)
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Disappointment, depression and …

I am disappointed and I think I slipped into depression!

I’m not entirely sure about it but I feel I’m at zero….again! Or maybe I’ve been here a few times, and done it over and over and not managed to start a positive circle yet.

We moved our large and young family down here in the so called “Bel Paese” with lots of expectations, ideas, projects and they slowly but surely all melted away like ice cubes in your summer drink.

Leaving the big metropoly was or wasn’t a good choice? Leaving a job in a big corporation was or wasn’t the right move?

When I look back at the last five years of my life I am very uncertaint of the choices I made. The feeling the country I moved to does not value the experience and the skills you try to offer (mine were matured in 15 years on the British island) is shared by many. I have not met a single person here that shares a different point of view. So how do they survive? A few leave but the most must put their heads in the sand!

I failed to reinvent myself. Is it because of me or because of the country I live in?
Probably I’m only trying to find another excuse to justify my failure.

It’s a strange feeling. I remember I always felt pretty good about myself. Don’t we all? At least we like to think so, don’t we?

I need a mentor to remind me daily that there is a light at the of tunnel. My light has gone off at least a year ago. During the last twelve month I believed I saw a feeble spark and found some new energy to reinvent myself. It did not last. I felt back down this bottomless well.

A great sense of responsability towards our children freezed my ability of reacting to this stale situation. Slowly but surely all the negative aspects of living in this country emerged. I do not recognise myself into this life philosophy and I remember why twenty years ago I run away from it !

It seems harder and harder finding the energy to get up from bed.

Recently a tragic event, luckily without life threatening consequences, put me in the spotlight. I seconded it and found a way to reinvent myself.
Undoubtly it is very satisfactory to feel useful. It is great to be recognised as useful, isn’t it?. It does not happen often, if at all, in the country I live in. Is it the same in your country?
Employers hardly praise their employees in this country. Meritocracy is not in their vocabulary. Society here ignores the meaning of it.

It all adds up to the unsatisfactory way I’ve been living my last five years.

The fact that most of us share a similar situation doesn’t help either.
I’ve been repeating to myself that I’m luckier than most. It does not help. Not in the long term. Dissatisfaction prevailed.

So what? What else I’ve got?
I’ve been told to “look for help”.
I refuse to visit a “srink”.
Is it a good sign? Or a bad one?
Am I so depressed that I don’t believe a “srink” could help me?
Or am I not completely “waisted” and so believe I can save myself?

Disappointment, depression and…

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Good morning, it’s Easter Friday! #rsa_photo_of_the_day #rsa_preciousjunk #rsa_texture #royalsnappingartists #urbex_rebels #exploring_shotz #team_3in1 #nothingisordinary #igersfvg #global_shotz #the_photographers_emporium #photo_rush #ita_details #ig_brilliant #ig_minimalshots #ig_captures_minimal #rsa_minimal #rsa_streetview #rsa_light #minimal_masters

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A very late good morning to all!
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